Alpaca out of fucking no where! XD

jeez i cant seem to win with my returns here, its like every time i try to come back i get some curve ball thrown at me that keeps me from stopping by. ill have to post an update blog sometime soon, at any rate im here now with another poem i wrote recently. enjoy :)

============ Mark on my head ==============

there's a mark on my head
that makes me feel better off dead
doesnt matter when, whether im awake or in bed
call upon me, i know youll make sure i heard what you said

cant take another day of this one way exchange
you make me pay fifty even though the price is ten
life isnt fair, i can trace that back to the beginnin
but somehow its like you know that im the one you can bend


im the type that looks out for others and goes above and beyond
but because of that im targeted by the selfish, then left to drown in the pond
because after you take everything and leave you couldnt care less
and despite everything ive done for you im left empty at best

so i sit and question whats the point of being kind in a world of such fiends
but its who i am and that cant change, so it kills me inside and tears me at the seams
i gotta be honest though, i wish it wernt true and if i could i would shake down the beams
sadly though it doesnt work that way, ill only find that peace in my dreams

so pesimistic, but prove to me its not true
and dont forget that actions beat words, so unless you show me i wont believe you
dont tell me its not that way when your guilty of it too
look in the mirror and watch your self if you want your first clue

theres a mark on my head that from miles you can see
one thatll call you so you can drain me completely
and though this is all explained metiphorically
dont deny that to you a tool is all you'll ever see in me

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as always, read, enjoy, comment, critique, and because i dont say it nearly enough, thank you to my readers and to the friends here both new, and the ones i've known for many years, lately i dont get the chance to talk with ya like i used to and a lot has changed in my life, but dont ever doubt that i appriciate the hell outa you guys, and the influence from our long friendships has done me a lot of good over the years. a shout out to Knight (Ricardo) and Ron (ron) and while im at it, tsp, where so many good things started.