Thats it...i lost it ...

Remember when i snapped at Azure_Pixy for making blogs about his problems well .... i made a mistake... because im not any better...im making this blog because i am seeking a shoulder to lean on...

I passed my medical today , but the balance of happiness can go down hard and when it goes down you get depressed ...i lost it today ...i suddenlty fell in a undescribable sadness that i cant imagine ... i snapped at people for no reason .... i just have this feeling that my life is going down .... i dont know why ...im scared that ill fail school , im scared i wont rank up in cadets......i get bullied ... and i have a feeling that i dont know what happiness is..

Due to my recent actions...i understand if you do not want to help me .... but i got no one else to turn to