Life, Revised

So, i woke up a few days ago and i had a critical thought process that took up 99% of all system resources in my brain. I do know that i lost about 2 minutes worth of life because all i recall doing was mumble and toss and turn in bed at around 6am. (funny thing about 6am, seems to be magic hour to me, more on that later) so, this morning during magic hour, i wake up semi alert and mumble "i remember now!" and i actually do remember what i had lost those 2 minutes. During those lovely 2 minutes, i remembered my life from the moment i had my first concious memory to the moment i woke up that day. I saw the missed possibilities, i saw missed moments, i saw missed potential, i saw things about anyones past that would make anyone depressed. In fact, the reason i forgot those 2 minutes (thinking about it, it could have been closer to 5 minutes) was because of all those things i had missed in life.

 

It is an acceptable theory, since people do say the brain blocks out painfull things such as memories and thoughts in order to keep the overall body working at optimal or near optimal capacity. Once i remembered what i had thought before i came to realize and i even thoughtfully scolded my mind for its unjustified attempt to protect the whole. i reminded him, that all those missed possibilities were replaced with achieved impossibilites, those missed moments were replaced with equivalent joyous achievements, those missed potentials were transformed into infinite conviction and infinite logical reasoning. And i reminded him, life is like that, we miss things but we always turn them into something better if we keep a possitive attitude as much as possible. There is nothing we cant achieve if we put our all into it. We must live in the present and never in the past, past is gone but must never be forgotten because how will we ever know where we are going if we dont know where we have been?

 

In conclusion, the mind is an interesting thing it loves to fool us and loves to protect us. however, we must always stay on top of it because it is just like a over protective mother...it loves to pamper you and doesnt let you experience those things that will strengthen your all.

 

aknowledge the past, live in the present, embrace the future for you never know what it will bring into our lives.

 

Oh yea, the 6AM magic hour. 6am is a funny little bastard. you see, back in highschool i used to sleep alot because my genetic composition demands that i get lots of rest or else i will be bumed out all day long. ofcourse, i dont listen to doctors because i believe them to be wrong 90% of the time. according to them i am not supposed to have an ounce of energy in my body because of this type of anemia that i have. Now, considering their diagnostics, they cant explain why i am hyper most of the time and why even though my body is supposed to be tired, i only really require about 3-4 hours of sleep. I digress back in school i used to sleep from 1:30ish AM until 5AM ish..4 years of this resulted in my body clocks being soooo messed up, that no matter how hard i try and no matter how much sleep i get, i am always up and awake at 6am...on the dot. mind you, i get into work at 9am and i live 5 mins from work..so 6am is the magic hour that i can no longer sleep past that time anymore.

 

Long post but there ya go